just thoughts and things

My week has been up and down I have and am using now my NIV machine it has given me quite a bit more energy.. I have been shopping with my dad he bought me a stoke top C'ON the Potters :D i have manged to wash and dry my hair.. every other day and get dressed my next aim is to get to the top of the drive with my dogs and hopefully no sod that Iul get a few steps walking them.. i will god damn it :P hehe
I only had one night in hospital, I had a room so not to catch any nasties, they had me booked in 2 nights but because I was good with it they took the pressures up then showed me how to do it because they wanted me to do it a little bit more once i got used to it and showed me all how to use it, then sent me home :D I got to see some of the nurses who looked after me when i really wasn't very well.. they were really nice
Its been abit like argue-ment central at home atm.. its getting me down, I try to just get on with most things and be thankful for what i have got n look forward to when I am 'normal' but when its like walking on eggs shells at home its hard and u do end up thinkin sod this am bloody sick of it.. It just makes it harder than it needs to be..
Any way the burnies are wonderful keep me sane..

Belle I miss you...

I need to get this out.. for all the transplant, O.B crap I deal with its nothing compared to losing you belle.. and maybe compared to some the O.B.. then waiting for new lungs is really nothing.. I mean at least I did have 9 yrs of being well with O.B and I am very very thankful for that..

I just need belle, so these are my feeling exactly .. yes it is the script song changed for belles name but its the close I can get it into words

If you see belle will you tell her that I love her.. If you see belle let her know I want her back.. I'm missin everythin about her.. make sure you say am sweet Fa without her..

<3>

Some good some bad and some bulls*it to boot..

Some parts of the last couple of weeks have been great...

Holls has been of with me for the summer holiday and we have had a south park summer she loves it..

a couple of days ago I got to go and see Ricky hatton and Frank Bruno at the vicky hall (our local theater) they were really funny I had a great night out with my dad.. and had a pint of magners.. hate sitting in the wheel chair and coughing after nearly everytime I laugh but you can't have everything hehe..

My dad did his drive in the aston martin DB9 that I got him for fathers day he absolutly loved its.. he got up to 95 miles a hour and took over 4 other cars on the track.. It was really cold and my mum nearly ran into someones back with my wheelchair.. But it was a great day out.. :D

I still havent has the results back for my bone denisty scan yet so don't know what is going to go on with that so just have to wait and see..

Have to go to hospital for an over night NIV CPAP or BiPAP to see if it gives me more energy in the day amougst other things and then if it does I have to bring it home swear done the dog will chew the mask.. lol

I had a delilah wake up call yesterday she jumped on my bed to get me up.. almost killed me lol.. then had lots of bernard kisses I think she thought I needed a wash lol the dogs are going though a stage of scratching at my door if I am not up and it closed because they want me up.. I'm so sure most dogs are cleverer than people.. defiantly more caring and understanding than some..

I am starting to bruise up a lot more recently.. a little knock and I get a lovely bruise lol.. I have even got one on my tattoo where delilah knocked onto me.. I didn't think they are ment to show up on tattoos but there you go..

Holls is back to school 2m will miss having her here with me to talk laugh and shout with.. shes a little angle or monster depending on what mood she is in but she is the kindest person I know

So thats me for now..